Not like this

Gianna Guttuso

You held my hand the day he left,

Swore some boys just aren't worth the wreck.

You swore you'd never cross that line--

But funny how hearts change with time.

You knew the way he shattered me,

Still stepped in soft and carelessly. 

Did my tears not stain deep enough?
Did watching me break not feel like enough?

You didn't ask, you didn't speak--

And now I see what you concealed--

The slow betrayal you revealed.

I could've lost him, still stood tall,

But losing you,

That wrecked it all.

You weren't supposed to twist the knife--

You were the brightest part of life.

I hope his smile was worth the price.

I hope your chest doesn't ache at night.

But if it does, you'll know it's fair--

You lit a match and left me there.

You borrowed clothes and borrowed time,

I told you secrets, all of mine.

I let you in, I made you kin--

Now I don't know where you've been.

Was I just space to fill a void?
A doll to drop once you got bored?
Did loyalty mean less than lust?
Did you forget what it meant to trust?
You don't get to say you're sorry now.

You made your choice--

I saw you bow. 

And I won't beg, I won't explain. 

But don't you dare pretend I'm the same.

I won't come running when you fall.

I won't pick up when you call. 

You broke more than a fragile heart--

You tore a sisterhood apart. 

So take the boy and take the lie.

Build your love on what's run dry.

But don't expect me at your side--

I mourned our friendship when it died.